I make it look easier than it really is.
Shaping the world around me didn't come naturally. I was in college when I learned about quantum mechanics and the importance of observation. It was completely counterintuitive - on a quantum level things exist in probability flux until they're observed, at which point they collapse into a solid answer, then flip back into a big fuzzy blob when you look away. The simple fact of looking at something could change it from one state to another (admittedly on a ludicrously tiny level). The math made my head swim.
Even I couldn't have put this information to use if I hadn't held such reverence for psychology. I was fascinated by how consciousness could arise from the mundanity of biology. One late night I was seized by the playful notion of how this magical mind of mine had a special power to look at things and make them resolve into truths. I wondered if I could choose the truth that would result. If all things were equally possible, why not? And so I did.
I won't go into the experimentation except to say that it took almost a decade before I could make anything happen on a useful level. For years I stared at pages full of calculated predictions and compared them to results, looking for the minuscule differences between expectation and reality. My little trick uses the force of my mind's observation to resolve anything that doesn't yet have a solid result any way I want it to. I can alter probability during the coin flip, or dice roll, or computer pseudorandom generation - almost anything that doesn't have a physical truth at the moment.
As I discovered a few years into my practice, peoples' thoughts are almost always uncertain and are never backed up by physical truths. Even when you're looking right at something, perception can trick you and your mind can see something different. This makes me very persuasive.
One day I was finally confident enough in my abilities to throw caution to the wind and embrace my destiny. This is the story of that day, and what happened after... |